# (2023-08-02) Vilas's Question: _Don't you exist_? (i.e. Who Am I?) Tags:: [[Mana]], #metaphysics ## The Question > [!tip] Question > - You said **Eryu doesn't exists** — that is **agreeable** > - **==But don't you feel you exist?==** > - **For whom you're eating?** > - **For whom you're enjoying?** > - **Who is meditating and enjoying the Jhanas**? > - **Who's seeking Nibbana?** > - For an Arahat, in seeing there's only seeing. > - **But who is seeing**? > [!info] Related Suttas > - MN72 Aggivacchasutta ([link](https://suttacentral.net/mn72/en/sujato)) > - SN22.85 Yamakasutta ([link](https://suttacentral.net/sn22.85/en/sujato)) ## Videos ##### Earlier > [!tldr] Videos > - Day 1: https://youtu.be/QMYJ-F0gD48 > - Day 2: https://youtu.be/muramXs8Da0 > - Day 3: https://youtu.be/WTaop2T6VYw - ayu = battery of a being - Usma = pana = life force = prana (as in [[Pranayama]]) - Immoral deeds drains the prana ##### 2023-08-06 - Why I = [[Namarupa|Nāmarūpa]]!!! - https://youtu.be/2aoVsH2Dqyo - The feeling of "I" = **_Witness Consciousness_** + [[Namarupa|Nāmarūpa]] = [[Sati]] - [[Namarupa|Nāmarūpa]] = a box of matchsticks (each representing a life) - all past live memories lives in namarupa (part of namagota) - namarupa is like a USB hard drive with all past live memories. At Parinibbana, the **"power socket"** of the USB drive is broken so it will NEVER gets re-establish anywhere. - **_Witness Consciousness** = vinnana = power source = **always in bliss** - _Witness Consciousness_ = different from the **_6 [[Vinnana|Viññāṇa]]_** - Jivita indriya = ayu + usma + vinnana (the witness consciousness) ##### 2023-08-09 -Q&A with Sachin - https://youtu.be/6OZum8EX5i4 ## Eryu's Contemplations - When i'm seeing, i'm the **seer** - When i'm hearing, i'm the **hearer** - When i'm smelling, i'm the **smeller** - When i'm touching, i'm the **toucher** - When i'm feeling, i'm the **feeler** - When i'm thinking, i'm the **thinker** - What about **feeling** and **perceiving** (e.g. the **Jhana**)? - What if i'm not seeing, hearing, ... thinking? **Do I still exist?** - Answer: **then "i" becomes unestablished** - so when that happens, **i cannot say i exist, nor can i say it doesn't exist**. but it's just **==unestablished==**. #eryu/insight/major - TODO: **To be continued** ##### 2023-09-06 - What is Mind and "I"! - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kTJvFu27Gms (Experiencing Deathless) - Discussed what is the "Mind" (Manas, which is different from Mano), and **what is "I"?** - First meeting with #Guha - **==5 Levels of "I"==** — 1) **5 aggregate**, 2) **5 ayatana**, 3) **namarupa** 4) **vinnana** 5) **citta** #eryu/learning/major ### Other thoughts Notes - **=="no return to any state of existence _(nāparaṁ itthattāyā)_"==** is NOT the same as **=="doesn’t exist after death _(na hoti paraṁ maraṇā)_"==** ### Suttas (found by Eryu) #### Potential solutions ![[DN11 Kevaṭṭasutta#^vinnanam-anidasannam|DN11]] ![[SN12.64 Atthirāgasutta#^doesnt-land]] ![[MN62 Mahārāhulovādasutta#^asmi-mana-give-up]] #### Wrong views ![[DN1 Brahmajālasutta#^62-wrong-views|DN1]] ![[SN22.85 Yamakasutta#^non-existence]] ![[MN38 Mahātaṇhāsaṅkhayasutta#^same-consciousness]] ## Answer - [[Namarupa|Nāmarūpa]] - See [[AN3.61 Titthāyatanasutta]]